Hello, it’s gone 2AM and I am feeling a tad bit self reflective and, or philosophic. I don’t know if it’s due to watching The Shining on DVD for the 4th time in 3 days. Or being a bit of a optimistic, crazy happy fruit. But I think it just needs to be blogged out, and in words. For awesome times, for you all to read, and because I’m so self “self-opinionated” and “patronising” of course (pun intended).
Lets go! So I am currently down in Devon seeing my family, its quite weird in a way to come home. Baring in mind I have not been home since starting University, which was 19th September. Overall has been nice to come back and see people and just chill out for a bit as I had like a crazy huge essay last week. My friend Josh - http://joshzoth.tumblr.com
put the whole “uni-home” experience in perfect words, that really summarizes how I’m pretty much feeling too:
Its funny, I can’t decide where feels more like home, because home home is weird because none of my stuff is there and most of my friends are not there and it’s nothing like it was but London isn’t home because it’s just not, I’m just like in limbo. Fine.
So yeah, it’s going to be good to go back on Sunday. I miss the little crazy antics of sitting in my room, listening to music, talking to friends, and just living a bit of the life thing.
However coming back and generally mulling things over has really got me thinking. Not in a negative “"naughty word alert" my life, emo emo, blah blah” way. But more of a sense of realisation and optimism. It just has become really prominent of why I set off on this quest, or adventure, or mission of University in the first place. I did it to better myself and for the experience. At the end of the day I see it that I am doing the degree because I want to control what I want to do with my life. And part of that is the enjoyment and experience.
And even though in the past 2 months I have had my ups, and my downs, and in betweens. Looking back, in hindsight. It’s been pretty "naughty word alert"ing awesome. And I just feel that I am really looking forward to the next three years. And the experiences, people, stuff and everything that is going to happen. And in terms of being at University for my career.
I feel that given the sort of “hickups” I had in the past months with the YouTube account, XBLA, etc and not making videos because of being stressed and busy. Within the past 3 years I have done some really "naughty word alert"in’ awesome stuff that I allowed myself to do, because I worked for them. I have worked hard to get where I am now. And making the videos and doing the whole “games industry” stuff over the years has been so amazing and I haven’t loved anything more because it’s allowed me to meet some amazing people and do amazing stuff. And really I just lost focus with the whole kufuffle of starting Uni and stuff.
So basically what I am saying is that in terms of developing my career, and doing what I want with my life. And I know most of you know what that is. I need to get back on the horse, because I love doing it. I just enjoy, creating something that people can consume and engage in and be entertained by. And to stop doing it, after all that I have been through. Would be such a waste of myself as a person, and the hard work and everything I put into it in the start. And in some ways, the reasons why I am at University in the first place!
So! To summarize, my Games Industry stuff will be back on like Donkey Kong! So go check out the site! Links here - http://www.xboxliveaddicts.co.uk/
And the channel is here - http://www.youtube.com/t3hxblashow
Let me know what you think!
Right. Moving on, as for other things. Like I said at the start of my self-opinionated and patronising manner. I just have recently with a few individuals had to take solus in the fact that. People change, sometimes for the bad. And the fact in life is you can’t change people. They can only change themselves. And given my situation and everything lately? I’m in no way going to compromise, and let myself be walked over. And ironically to go 4chan for a moment “haters gonna hate”.
But don’t they say? You really haven’t made it until you have a hater? I mean isn’t it just like a bit of a Trophy statement? Anyways all I know is that things are good. Life is short. Never say Never. “Eatin’ ain’t cheatin’” And some other nonsense I can’t think about! Oh and by the way if you have read through this and got a raging boner about how awesome I am. Feel free to follow me on twitter! I went off my Tweets for a while but now I am back on everything, with all the random crap I say. Here is a link - http://twitter.com/johnathonwaples
Anyway, it’s now 2:42 and I should really sleep! Love every single one of you so freaking much! Thank you for reading this, it means I mean something to you. And of course you mean something to me! <3 Stay classy xxx